So, the bridal store got in the loaner dress that I’ve been eying online for months now. Below are photos of red one I loved from last week vs the white/silver one I’ve loved from day one.

I put the red one on again first and looked at myself and really stood there and picked out everything I might not like about it. I made sure to try on veils with it to see what i liked and what i didn’t. She put the super long veil on me and I admit, I got a little teary-eyed.

Then I put the second one on. I looked at myself in the white one and I looked and I looked.. I WANTED to love it, and it is REALLY really gorgeous, it was just too… tame. It looks like every other wedding dress out there. Oh, it’s justly lovely and light, but it was more fit for a meek, milk and honey bride going back to 2.5 kids and a white picket fence and a 9-5 job. It was just not me at all.

I have my wedding dress! Now to decide on a veil, shoes (omg, wth.. do I really care about shoes? Not really. I’ll probably just wear whatever Meggie tells me to) and jewelry. I felt really horrible calling my mom and meggie to tell them “Oh hey, I know I said i wanted you to come with me wedding dress shopping, but I’ve already found my dress, soooo.. don’t come.” I hate hate hate disappointing people. I will have to find a way to make it up to my mom especially.