PMS is really really kicking my ass today.

I’ve been having an emo artistic meltdown today. WHY can’t I get what I want out of my photos, how can I do what I DO want? WHAT on earth am I doing charging people for this load of crap? OMG, I just need to quit and go back to something mediocre like working at a gas station for the rest of my life.
I feel like I’ve lost all my creativity  and I’ve hit a wall with my processing.. etc. My stuff hasn’t gotten any better in the past year and I just feel like I’ve been shooting sears photos and I need to get my fairytales back to fine art. This guy’s wedding work makes me want to just throw out my camera: I want my fairy stuff to look like that, but is it impossible with small kids?!? What the hell am I doing with my life? ::sob::

I’m not looking for a bunch of people to comment and blow sunshine up my ass, I just needed to vent.