I found out a few days ago that I’m not the only photographer in this city doing what I’m doing. There’s another girl doing on-location stuff. She’s about my age and has two kids herself. This really is only relevant because she has acccess to a bunch of mothers stuff that I do not. I looked at her website and it’s a flash-based site. I looks nice and professional, but not neccesarily better than mine. She does, however, have a better camera than I do.
I’m feeling generally discouraged, because suddenly what I’m doing (or attempting to do) isn’t so unique anymore. I’m also down because all the moms I’ve talked to at the playground and stuff got really excited when they saw my work.. then nothing. All of them are like “Ohhh, I LOVE your stuff, I’m SOOO going to hire you!!!” and then I get nothing. This isn’t a one-time thing either, it’s happened at least 4 times! I mean, do I smell? Do I have a tattoo on my forehead that says ‘Lie to me!”? ::sigh:: I think that I will start saying “I can add you to my mailing list to keep you updated about any specials I’m running.” That way I can get contact info without being obnoxious about it.
I’m tired of not being able to hold up my end of the financial responsibilities here. I’m tired of not being able to do what I want to do because we’re either short of money or I’m short on clients to shoot. I’m taken waaaaayyy too many pictures of Larken’s kids. They must think I have the camera attatched to my face over there. I need to have people beating down my door. You hear that? People with kids: come beat down my door!