I threw away the key to my mother’s house today. I say my mother’s house, because it’s no longer any part of mine or anyone else’s. When my dad left, she changed the locks. The key I had hanging on my key ring has been useless for months. But I kept it there. Partly it was because I just didn’t get around to taking it off. The other part was that I just couldn’t bring myself to. As if throwing away that key would be throwing out my hope for something. I didn’t want my dad to go back, and I didn’t want them to be together again, but… I also wasn’t prepared to give up my mom and dad yet. My Mommy and Daddy who’d been my light since I was first able to see them. Why do I hold so tightly to a symbol of a home? I guess because I’ve never been without one before… So, today I took it off my key ring and threw the useless hunk of metal out. I watched it arc into the trashcan and hit the bottom with a dull metal ‘clunk’, and my pocket still doesn’t feel any lighter. Neither does my heart…
Well, in other news, I won that bunch of 28 Pixietails that I’ve been frothing at the mouth over for the last few days. They should be here on Monday or Tuesday. I’m all crazy over these because they (combined with the 30 that I just found out Larry won for me over Christmas) will push me close to the 150 mark. 🙂 I’m such a dork.
I’ve also started my period today, so I fully expect to turn into THE UBER-BITCH FROM HELL like I have been these past few months. PMS has really been kicking my ass. So far though, nothing really bitchy has happened. Or maybe it has and I haven’t noticed it. Took Meggie some meds yesterday, because she is very very sick. She says “I’m drowning in a pool of my own phlegm”. Now, if that isn’t a really disgusting mental picture, I don’t know what is. Yuck! Maybe though, I was uber-bitch to her and didn’t notice. Dunno. I worry about that, because I don’t want to be mean to people.
I’m headed to the Tennessee Aquarium with Meggie on Saturday. She’s never been, so we decided to make a day trip out of it and go. I’m going to take more photos, because I love seahorses. 🙂 Then on Sunday, I’m going down to see Larry’s place in Stockbridge, and his kittens. We’re going to work more on the graphic novel while I’m there, so hopefully sometime within the year, we’ll start seeing some actual work out of it. ::gasp:: Imagine that! Heather actually working!